20
Nov
“Remember, unless you want to officially cut ties with someone, always give them a way out in conversation. Never be outright with your feelings. You want them to leave the conversation with their pride.”
I flashed back to that day a couple of years ago when it was just her and me. We went out to have dessert for breakfast and we sat and had a conversation about haircuts and bad roommates. She invited me to be part of her suite the following year. “You can room with Vladimir”, she said.
Cut to two years later when I’m telling my dad that this same girl and I haven’t exchanged words in over 24 hours. I feel bad. I feel really bad. I shouldn’t because my reasons for not liking her are valid but somehow in the last few months I forgot that she and I were good friends once. She was the only friend I had in this suite in the beginning. We had the best conversations about life that would last for hours and I felt I could talk to her about almost anything…and now…
I don’t know if it can be fixed. I don’t think we can be friends. I don’t talk smack about my friends. If I’m upset with them, I only complain to my parents because my parents are not my peers, so it doesn’t count. I already said so many negative things about her and even if she doesn’t know it, I do and I always will. I’d feel like a fraud.
Tomorrow there is a mediation meeting that includes her and the RA. I wish I didn’t remember that we were friends once.
Scratch that. I wish that we were still friends and that this never happened in the first place.
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